Letter to my Younger Self
Dear 16-year-old self,
A lot of emotions took place during the photo above.
We just lost in the state semifinals to Chillicothe, who played their butts off and used their fast point guard to offset our speed.
Anyway, I prefer something other than discussing the events that day.
The beginning of that year started with me transferring to Ursuline High School, which had been recruiting me hard since I was in 7th grade.
This is the 2007–2008 school year, which started with me attending Ursuline High School.
I never forget when I made that decision, which wasn’t based on my own decision; it was influenced by other people involved in my life.
It felt easy to go there, and it felt easy to leave Poland because I felt like I was underappreciated at times and not appreciated for the talent that I offered.
I felt like I could go there and everything would be okay.
But when I stepped into school in August of 2007 at Ursuline High School, it didn’t feel like home because I thought the school’s energy didn’t vibe with me.
I remember telling myself I must get out of this situation.
No hard feelings against Ursuline; it wasn’t in my best interest to go there, even if the pundits would say otherwise.
I called Coach Grisdale and told him I wanted to come back home.
The best decision I ever made was that we went that basketball season, losing one game, which was in the state semifinals against Chillicothe.
Now let’s get to the letter that was a backstory that, at the time, I don’t know if I had enough patience to sit through and read this lol.
I am so happy at your age, and you put your happiness into your own hands.
I am delighted at the ages of 15 and 16, and you decided to focus on what made you happy and chose to be.
I am sitting here today reflecting on how proud I am of you and how you handled that situation.
You had to apologize in front of your teammates in Poland and apologize multiple times to them about leaving and transferring.
You had to deal with teammates calling you selfish and all kinds of things behind and in front of your face.
This quote by Neville Goddard rings a bell in my head as I am writing this letter.
“The world is yourself pushed out.”
“The whole vast world is yourself pushed out.”
“All the people in the world are yourself pushed out.”
“The whole vast world is no more than man’s imagination pushed out.”
I bolded those because many people won’t understand that concept, but you will come across more of these gems if you become more in tune with your consciousness.
When this happened, I was not in tune with the more profound powers I have today.
I kept asking myself why this was happening to me.
Why do people call me these names and do things to me with disrespect?
One, it was because I didn’t step into my power.
And two, it was because I didn’t command the respect, but I didn’t command them with my TALENT.
If I had known in my inspiration cage about Neville’s message, I would have responded differently to my circumstances.
So, to my younger self, I would suggest reading some Neville Goddard, Florence Scovel Shinn, and Beckwith earlier so you can control your mind, not allowing others’ feelings, assumptions, and insecurities to be placed on your mind.
I would also suggest that you begin to find time for your game to work on your game so you can be ready for the next seasons of your life.
I would hang around people who will make you better and help you get the Division 1 scholarship YOU DEEPLY WANTED.
Because down the road, the next basketball season will present more challenges that you will have to GROW THROUGH.
Namaste.